Semua Kenapa di Kepala

Lain kali, kalo hati rasanya susah, gundah gulana, inget-inget, ada zakat yang belum dibayar? Ada kewajiban yang belum tunai? Hari ini waktu menghadap cermin, siap-siap ke kantor, tiba-tiba semua pertanyaan kenapa di kepala selama 2 mingguan terjawab sudah. Kenapa saya akhir-akhir ini tertekan sekali, sedih sekali, gundah sekali. Saya belum bayar kekurangan zakat tahun lalu. Belum bayar urunan traktir ulang tahun ke teman.

Allah baik banget sama saya, ngingetin saya, Alhamdulillaah.

God Help Me Please

Lately it has been very hard. I am talking about PMS. While thinking about my marriage future. Nan himdero cheongmal. God help me. Todat I weep almost through the day. Without any clear reason. BIG SIGH. Decided to randomly open The Qur'an, to hear what Gusti Allah want me to know. And there it is, Al-Kahfi:46.

....Aaaand I weep again.

No One Else Like You

When time comes, enjoying each other's presence and saying, we're blessed that we found each other, I hope we could. Meanwhile, I'll let these 10 cuties show that feel.



Gusti Allah Jjang-est!

[Lyrics] Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard Ft. Marketa Irglova

Emo overload! Here we go...

I don't know you
but I want you
all the more for that
words fall through me
and always fool me
and I can't react

games that never amount
to more than they're meant
will play themselves out

take this sinking boat
and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopeful voice
you had the choice
you've made it now

falling slowly
eyes that know me
and I can't go back
wounds that take me
and erase me
and I'm painted black

well you have suffered enough
and warred with yourself
it's time that you've won

take this sinking boat
and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopeful voice
you had the choice
you've made it now

take this sinking boat
and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopeful voice
you had the choice
you've made it now

falling slowly
sing your melody
I'll sing it loud
loud

A lot, I mean A LOT of korean singers covered this song on broadcasts. But I really dig Sungmin and Sunny's version. I don't need to give the youtube link, it's easily discovered.

PS. To add emotional feel, at the end of the song:

I paid the cost too late....
Now you're gone..

[OST Cinderella's Sister] Yesung - It Has To Be You

Yesung is a member of KPop boyband, Super Junior, which has 13 members. So don't blame me if I just know by now that he can actually sing.

This song really suits the bitter part of drama Cinderella's Sister. The bitter part, always come on every episodes. The two leader casts are always crying. Oh so bitter. Yet I'm all hooked up. Seo Woo who plays the Cinderella part, is an example of extreme aegyo. like a lost cat. My heart goes with her in every episodes. Wishing the writers to have a mercy and make her role happy at the end. The step sister part, is Moon Geun-young, known as The Nation's Younger Sister (maybe I can compare her angelic image to Dian Sastro in Indonesia). In this drama she sheds that image and plays a total witch (like a Cinderella's step sister supposed to be). Not very catchy in my eyes though, but I know she tried hard.

If you can stand a going-nowhere plot, extreme aegyo, lots of tears, but really dig deep down acting from the leader casts, give Cinderella's Sister a try.

Realizing The Best Is Never Easy

Warning, this post was written under great influence of Post MS. Bear with it, please ^^.

I'm not entitled to own any heart, not yours, not anyone. I am here with a long live hope to come near to your heart. But I guess right now, I know that's not supposed to be. Then my whole live hope should be changed. I am not what I used to. I can't be. Then I wonder what should I be. May be this is why I keep postpone this thought inside. When I brought this up like this, the thought of it is so confusing, I'm exhausted already. I don't know what will I be.

May be I should go back to where I began. To the pure thought I had when I knew nothing. To embrace any destiny that comes. Like what I did. It's hard. Because now I know not anything you want will come true. Not even if you fight for it. I had a hard time and will be having it for time to come. I need to pray hard so that I don't loose common sense. To spot any blessing in life that I might missed before. To know that I could found a heart, to accompany mine.

Your heart is always special to me, yours and others. But I guess that's just it.

Well for you who don't know me well, I feel like I have to explain this. Otherwise you might find me weird, hard to approach and live in my own world (on the second thought, errr, it might be right). But no, I don't feel myself as this kind of person. Not when I'm not in my monthly syndrome, not like this time.

Actually this Post MS is not that bad though. I become a little sensitive and introspective. Because I'm originally not like that, I find it special so I decide to write it down. It might be useful (somehow) for the future me.

And the last thing I want from this writing is to get wrong thought from someone who doesn't know me. Believe me, I am not always like this (am I?).

Long Time No Post

Too much twitter and less blogging. That's my habit lately. Anyway, nothing peculiar happened. Just eager to read books more than usual. Ever since there is cable TV and internet installed in my room, I guess books are being abandoned. Now they're not. I even borrow some from the company's library. And they are worth reading. Wrote some notes on Jayapura trip but so lazy to transfer it from the phone. Currently struggling to finish Dashboard application. And a better half to search for.

WHAT a way to finish a post!

Thankful

It's not about the result
It's about the process along the way
There are so many good people I've met
Too many memories we crafted
They touched me deeply, meaningfully
They make me thank God for giving this life

Dongwannie ahjussi is so wise :D

When you choose to speak, under any reasons or circumstances, and badmouthing others is the only thing that will come out, stop it. It's hurting other people. And mostly, hurting yourself.

Inspired by Kim Dongwan's blog post.

Random Mind #8

I don't mind to be kept busy when everybody else are doing their job. I'm busy, but happy. And contented. This IS what work means to me.

Anyway, I owe my mom a delicious red-velvet cake. And a plate of yummy warm vegetable casserole for myself. Another challenging baking time this weekend.

Bored

A 29 year-to-be lady was bored. She watched some cake decorating videos and made this playdough rose as a result.

How about using the technique to cupcakes and gumpaste decorating? We will see her amount of will next week. If lucky, she will bake some and bring it to the office.

Random Mind #7

Rasulullah SAW:

Hati-hatilah kalian dari berprasangka (buruk), karena prasangka adalah sedusta-dustanya ucapan.

HR.Bukhari dan Muslim

Never Fail to Get Up

He will throw you, over and over again, to get you to know, this life He trusted to you, aint a joke

Random Mind #6

Melo mood ON

... Cause I'm weary

Share My Moodlody

Notice an mp3 player I've put on top of this blog post? I'm trying to share you my current mood melody, moodlody for short ^_^. This can be the current song I've put on nonstop playing or an enjoyable song I've found while surfing or just a top 10 song on Korean music industry. Other way all I hope is I could give you some options on how this blog should be read melodically. Enjoy.

Random Mind #5

SNSD's new song, Run Devil Run sounds fierce.

Do it right. You're really a bad boy.

There they said it!

Expect The Unexpected

Life sometimes can turn weird. How I want you to know this. I've stepped into that weirdness tonight.

The Look and Feel of Home-Made Tiramisu

Our own home-made Tiramisu. Right from the start of lady finger baking. Getting half size of this cake from local pattisier costs me as much as I spent for this home-made. Not to mention having the right taste we want that only can came from those which are home-made. I like less thick lady fingers and having it soaked very well in the coffee.

So, as you know, where to find the best Tiramisu in town? They come from our own kitchen.

Where to buy lady finger in Bintaro?

Okay, I've had enough. I'm dying to make another Tiramisu this weekend. But I can't find any store near Bintaro that sell lady fingers. No, I'm not tolerating. I don't replace lady fingers with sponge cake. The texture and taste is different. This is frustrating. Should go all the way to Fatmawati through a crazy traffic jam just to buy the lady fingers, 2 hours alone, I'm roughly calculating. God help me T.T

Thank You Allah

Random Mind #4

Just read JB's recap of The Woman Who Still Wants to Marry episode 4. Got big blown by the script, the imagination of Kim Bum flirt with older woman. That is one cute hell playboy right there!

Follow Changes to Any Website with Google Reader

And now Google Reader has enable us to follow changes of any website pages that don't have feeds. Just click Add Subscription, paste the page URL and click Create a Feed. My first trial will be NAB Reksadana PNM Ekuitas Syariah's page. Tomorrow the page should be changed, and I will see it through my lovely Google Reader!

Update: unfortunately it is failed T.T

Google was not able to access this page to check for updates. This page may be unavailable or have other restrictions that prevent Google from getting updates.

Random Mind #3

Jang Geun-Seok surely choose the dorky path! In a bold way! I can't believe this was the charming Geun-Seok in Hwang Jini and You Are Beautiful. LOL.. such a dork.

Random Mind #2

Some random trivia about Younha's song "Broke Up Today":

• The music video starring Ji Chang Wook & Han Bo Bae. The handsome Ji Chang Wook was adorable mangnae (youngest brother) Song Mi Poong in drama The Sons of Sol's Pharmacy House.
• Younha was featured in Kim Dong Wan's single Promise. It was released at the time Dong Wan was going to the mandatory military service in 2008.
• A lot of KPop lovers consider Younha is very talented but receives not enough attention due to massive expansion of girl and boy band.
• The song and the music video, I find them quite interesting. But still, not enough to conquer SNSD and 2PM on the chart *grin*
• The hair.. it was hair extensions right? Ah.. what's with these girl singers and hair extensions... It didn't look natural.
• Anyway, please enjoy her gifted voice like I do and forgive me for all the nonsense.

Call .Net Application from SAP BAPI

Although other way around is very common, I never think of possibility to establish connection from SAP to .Net. This article describe the possibility. In that example, SAP BAPI call .Net program to send e-mail through Gmail POP3. Nice.

SAP BI Planning Sequence

Let's learn a bit about the result of button Start Modeller in transaction RSPLAN. Any of you wonder what is that thing - when an explorer burst out contains 5 tabs titled Modeller at the top of the window? Well I am. Why would we have to do it web based anyway. I'll let that to be a mystery for now.

Simply said, this window allow us to perform some 'query command' to an InfoProvider. Like we all IT freaks acknowledge, the famous "SELECT attribute_fields, SUM value_fields GROUP BY attribute_fields FROM table WHERE condition"

Those 5 tabs represent each piece of the famous statement above. InfoProvider represents the table. Aggregation level represents the SELECT and GROUP BY attribute_fields at the same time. Filter represents the WHERE condition. Planning function represents the type of command we need to do, whether it is delete or update. Other than that, a lot of actions already prepared by SAP. Moreover, we can add new type of actions when all that prepared don't fullfil our need. Planning sequence is like a wrapper that consist sequence of the planning functions needed to play together for a certain goal.

Up until here, I hope that helps to mend your confuse mind. And not get more confuse. Next...

This is some diagram to show the relationship between each tab.

So to get us started, first we need to define an aggregation level.
Following it, a filter and a planning function based on the aggregation level. Finally, put the planning function into a planning sequence.

Now the fun part, testing. First make sure the InfoProvider is in the Plan Mode. Go to RSA1 right click the InfoProvider. Change Real-Time Load Behaviour and tick Real-Time Data Target Can be Planned. After we do this, we need to close the browser and re-open it. In the extreme condition where SAP seems to be ignorant little thing, I even have to close the browser, close the GUI and re-login.

A planning sequence can be executed directly. You can see execute button on top of Planning Sequence tab. Don't be scared to click it because it won't change the actual data. Not until you click "Save Plan Data" and set the InfoProvider into Load Mode. The newly updated data will appear as a new request in Manage section of the InfoProvider.

The useful part, planning sequence can be called through Process Chain. You can find it under Process Type - Other BW Process - Execute Planning Sequence.

Phew, I'm done.

Written while listening: 죽어도 못 보내 - 2AM

Currently on The Playlist

• Even If I Die, I Can't Let Go - 2AM. Jo Kwon yang melambai itu.. nyanyi ballad kaya gini. Currently smitten by the strong lyrics. 
• One Love - Andy Feat. Kim Dong Wan. The lyrics come from the heart, thus so beautiful. I can't help but to say, good job Andy! And come back soon Shinhwa!
• Alone - CNBlue. New comer with a bit of Japanese taste, fast and catchy rhythms.

Seriously addictive, here is 2AM's MV with English transalation. Credit as shown in the video.

Random Mind #1

I thought if I could keep these random thoughts in blog it would be better. Twitter or Facebook are just too expensive for an office prisoner like me. So here I go:

Was reading dramabeans about Que Sera-Sera and realize how un-finish the drama is from the viewers' point of view. Thinking about this guy who is serving his military duty and will come back in 9 months. So Eric, just do Que Sera-Sera season 2 when you come back please!

Nggak Penting...But Still

I have times when I feel like... Soul-less. That's the time when I think I haven't watch enough heart-warming drama. Heart-warming dramas recharge my soul. When one of those kind of drama ends, I mourned and prayed, Allah... please let me watch another good one after this.

Credit as shown in the picture

KBS Hot Blood just ended yesterday night. Leaving me a warm feel of family love, sincere friendship, peaceful and brave heart and less-than-it-should-be romantic scenes. It's rating were never high. But my taste sometimes don't go along the ratings. Honestly it's the presence of Park Hae Jin of FO that drags me into this drama at first. But when I watch along next episodes, they do worth watching indeed. Like I said, this drama makes me soulful. That little things I should embrace while walking the rough weekdays and never-enough-rest weekends, that life is not all about money. That the most precious things in your life are tend to be forgotten and only occurs to your regret when it's gone. That friends are invaluable and enemies are lying within yourself. Greed, fear, grudge. Hot Blood is over. Next!

Bye For Now, Andy Sshi..

Song of the day: One Love (You Taught Me) - Andy Feat. Kim Dong Wan [Youtube].

2010 Is Here

모두들 새해 복 많이 받으세요!

Happy New Year Everyone!

For me 2009 has been a laid back year. I need to pay it in 2010. After all, this is my second year serving in national oil and gas company and learning SAP. I put up my saving in a good way, move out from being "anak kos" to "ibu kontrakan". 2009 is the first year I was fascinated by Korean entertainment the whole year. Came to KL for a business trip. I lost 3 kg, get to know SAP BI closer, finally get a courage I need to have long time ago. I bought an oven to encourage this mind, hands and fingers to have fun besides laptop. I learn to reach office by train and try to reach home before dawn.

Anyway, let's talk about NOTHING in Korean entertainment, hihi. The best kdrama in 2009, my sister and I agree, is The Sons of Sol's Pharmacy House. The most entertaining variety show is Variety Jeongshin's 2 Days 1 Night. The impressive music talk show is Yu Hui Yeol's Sketchbook. 2009 is full of girls and boys band with catchy rhythm and beautiful faces, my picks are 2NE1 and SHINee. I enjoy Clazziquai's Tell Yourself, IRIS' OST by Baek Ji Young and Shin Seung Hoon, Kim Tae Woo's Love Rain. Lee Eun Mi's I Have a Lover, Lee Min Woo's IMU and Love is a Beautiful Word, Shin Hye Sung's You Are Beautiful. I enjoy Invincible Youth and Family Outing too (thanks to Iky ^_^). I learn a bit about Hangul and Korean vocabs.

In 2010 this blog will be full of Korean tidbits, SAP and .... we'll see.

행복하세요~~

Be Happy...