God Help Me Please

Lately it has been very hard. I am talking about PMS. While thinking about my marriage future. Nan himdero cheongmal. God help me. Todat I weep almost through the day. Without any clear reason. BIG SIGH. Decided to randomly open The Qur'an, to hear what Gusti Allah want me to know. And there it is, Al-Kahfi:46.

....Aaaand I weep again.