THAT Letter is Here. Alhamdulillah.

The offer letter. From University of Melbourne. The letter that will take me and my family to a new and challenging journey. To a life that i have been thinking of.

Oh entah sudah berapa kali terpikir oleh saya, bagaimana rasanya hidup di negeri orang. Bersama Dini, bersama Mas. Bertiga saja.

Hujan di bulan Desember selalu membangkitkan kenangan indah. Kenangan berita penerimaan Perusahaan ini untuk saya. Hari esok kenangan hujan Desember akan bertambah lagi. Bulan Desember ini Universitas mempercayai saya untuk belajar di sana.

Saya takut. Saya selalu takut memulai hal baru. Tapi antusias. Saya tak sabar berada di Melbourne. Tak sabar memperlihatkan dunia kepada Dini. Tak sabar membuktikan kepada diri sendiri bahwa saya bisa. Saya bertanggung jawab. Saya pantas.

Saya dan Dini akan menyongsong apa yang disiapkan Allah untuk kami. Kami dua perempuan penyuka keju, Ibu dan anak yang tak terpisahkan, pasangan nyanyunyu paling oke dari B8/10 dan B8/13. Kami tidak takut tantangan, tidak takut keluar dari zona nyaman. Tidak takut komentar, larangan, cemoohan, keraguan bahkan pujian dari orang. Kami akan berjalan saja di jalan ini, jalan yang sudah disiapkan Allah. Dimana pertolongan, bimbingan dan pelajaran-Nya tertanam sepanjang jalan. Bismillah. Alhamdulillah.

Missing My Little Daughter

I miss her very much. I can smell her from here. Yet I only left home for 8 hours. No i'm not going abroad or out of town without her. That's not negotiable. Hoping my Unimelb application got good news. We'll be having a cool experience of living abroad. Me, Her and Her Dad.

Nareswari Khadijah Adiningsih

It's been very long time since I wrote my last blog post. And here I am, writing again. Now I'm a mom of a beautiful baby girl. That's being said, with a single sentence, yet it take almost all my thought, my effort, my life. She's 3 months and 2 weeks. She's healthy and that what's the most important thing right now. She's adorable and demanding. Especially about her milk. If she wants milk, she wants it now. This is her, with a pouting mouth.

The Meaning of Variable I_STEP

Look for t-code SMOD in SAP BI. The enhancement RSR00001 has variable I_STEP, that ABAP-er usually use like this:

IF I_STEP = 2. "after the popup 

I wonder what value 2 stands for, and the answer is:

● I_STEP = 1

Call is made directly before variable entry.

● I_STEP = 2

Call is made directly after variable entry. This step is only executed if the same variable is not input-ready and could not be filled for I_STEP = 1.

● I_STEP = 3

In this call, you can check the values of the variables. When an exception (RAISE) is triggered, the variable screen appears again. I_STEP = 2 is then also called again.

● I_STEP = 0

The enhancement is not called from the variable screen. The call can originate from the authorization check or from the monitor.

Reference: SAP Help

Semua Kenapa di Kepala

Lain kali, kalo hati rasanya susah, gundah gulana, inget-inget, ada zakat yang belum dibayar? Ada kewajiban yang belum tunai? Hari ini waktu menghadap cermin, siap-siap ke kantor, tiba-tiba semua pertanyaan kenapa di kepala selama 2 mingguan terjawab sudah. Kenapa saya akhir-akhir ini tertekan sekali, sedih sekali, gundah sekali. Saya belum bayar kekurangan zakat tahun lalu. Belum bayar urunan traktir ulang tahun ke teman.

Allah baik banget sama saya, ngingetin saya, Alhamdulillaah.

God Help Me Please

Lately it has been very hard. I am talking about PMS. While thinking about my marriage future. Nan himdero cheongmal. God help me. Todat I weep almost through the day. Without any clear reason. BIG SIGH. Decided to randomly open The Qur'an, to hear what Gusti Allah want me to know. And there it is, Al-Kahfi:46.

....Aaaand I weep again.

No One Else Like You

When time comes, enjoying each other's presence and saying, we're blessed that we found each other, I hope we could. Meanwhile, I'll let these 10 cuties show that feel.



Gusti Allah Jjang-est!

[Lyrics] Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard Ft. Marketa Irglova

Emo overload! Here we go...

I don't know you
but I want you
all the more for that
words fall through me
and always fool me
and I can't react

games that never amount
to more than they're meant
will play themselves out

take this sinking boat
and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopeful voice
you had the choice
you've made it now

falling slowly
eyes that know me
and I can't go back
wounds that take me
and erase me
and I'm painted black

well you have suffered enough
and warred with yourself
it's time that you've won

take this sinking boat
and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopeful voice
you had the choice
you've made it now

take this sinking boat
and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopeful voice
you had the choice
you've made it now

falling slowly
sing your melody
I'll sing it loud
loud

A lot, I mean A LOT of korean singers covered this song on broadcasts. But I really dig Sungmin and Sunny's version. I don't need to give the youtube link, it's easily discovered.

PS. To add emotional feel, at the end of the song:

I paid the cost too late....
Now you're gone..